Jan 01 2009
New Year’s Day Started Out Sucking But….
Well, I had a deadline for a $10 bonus from Associated Content. The catch? Well, I was supposed to write at least 20 articles for the month of December, which wouldn’t have been too hard for me considering how I normally want to write. The thing is, that I can’t always write when I have the inspiration to. I have a husband, baby, other children I help with, family obligations, errands, etc. Of course, when I told my husband about it, he was all ears and said that he’d watch our daughter whenever I wanted to write. Well, most women with kids know how that goes. When you feel like doing something, they don’t feel like watching the kids. In addition to that, I gave everyone homemade gifts, and took quite a bit of time making those. I had planned when I first got the notification to turn in the 20 articles, to write one or two each day. That was no dice, since it seems like I have way too much to do everyday and a baby on my hip. I also had gotten an offer from a freelance company to work between 20 and 30 hours a week writing articles of their choosing for compensation of $10,000 or more at the end of the project. I was not even going to try doing that. I mentioned it to my husband and his immediate repsonse was, “Baby, for money like that I would make sure and watch the baby so you could write.” I already know better on that one when it comes to him watching her so that I can do things. I can’t even have enough time to write two articles a day, so I know that there’s no way he’d watch her enough for me to put that much work in. The house would be an even bigger mess than it is, and there would be piles of laundry awaiting me, with hell knows what else. I love my husband, and he is more helpful than most guys. He doesn’t think he’s too good to change diapers, cook, or clean. He’s great with our daughter, he’ll do the grocery shopping, and run errands. It’s just that, and most mom’s will testify to this, males just don’t do things the way we do them. So, we would rather take on a huge load to have it done “the right way.” It’s not that they can’t do those things, it’s just that I like the way I do laundry etc, and I don’t want anyone else touching it.
Basically, I guess I’m just going to have to be happy with writing and publishing whenever it is that I get time to do so. I write to buy little stuff around the house, help put gas in the suv, and buy diapers. It would be nice to be one of the $700+ per month bloggers, or writers but it’s not going to happen anytime soon. I think that our daughter’s too young at this point, and I like to spend lots of time with her. I feel guilty even writing at all to tell the truth. There’s also the fact that when you’re in a relationship with a child, little quiet moments are rare. I like spending those times with my wonderful husband when I can. It might be days or weeks until we can have a few moments to just talk, and not fall asleep for lack thereof.
New Year’s Day started out sucking, but I had to remember that not being able to reach a goal for $10 measly bucks isn’t anything to be sour about. There are people in really bad situations who don’t have what I do all over the world. There are people who don’t have a family to interrupt them while they are trying to do things. So, in those respects, I’m pretty lucky. I think about not having the people that I love all of the time. I’d rather have total chaos than not have my husband, child, nieces, nephews, in-laws, and other family members. All I can hope for is that I’m making a difference for someone close to me, who will in turn do the same for someone else.
